| From http://www.thisisnotover.com/ |
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Iran, Iran Not So Far Away?
Anyway. Iran. Apparently that's where Bush wants to go next, because he heard they might be getting ready to make nuclear weapons.
Now, let's say you wanted to get a pair of red shoes. And let's say you especially wanted to get them before someone else who deserved them less than you felt you do -- even if you already had a few pairs of red shoes in your closet. And let's say someone told you that they saw a pair at Nine West. And suppose you went to Nine West, and they told you they didn't have any red shoes out on the floor, but that they'd go look in the back for you. And let's say that when the clerk was in the stock room, she got crushed by a whole bunch of shoeboxes and died. Would you call off your search for red shoes? Or would you wait to hear another rumour that they had red shoes at Steve Madden and go looking for them there?
What if, instead of one clerk dying while searching for red shoes for you, 1200 clerks died? And what if the cab ride to the store cost you like hundreds of billions of dollars? And what if the word started to get out about shoe store clerks getting killed and stores weren't able to hire anyone to clerk in shoe stores anymore? THEN would you quit looking for red shoes?
I can't really sustain this analogy because it's so stupid. None of us would behave this way because we're not developmentally delayed. The new president isn't as cautious as we are. Or as able to learn from mistakes and setbacks. No, his thing is being "resolute" and "decisive."
So Iran has once again denied that its nuclear plans go beyond energy production, and have furthermore pledged to defend itself against attack. Awesome.
Should we start a countdown clock to see when the Bush administration admits that it lied, and that it does plan to reinstate the draft? Because I seriously see it coming.
-Posted by Wing Chun
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| VOTE...even depressed i have my priorities in order... |
[02 Nov 2004|07:15am] |
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i don't mean to be a bitch. i don't do it to be a bitch. but she hurt me a lot. you think you have this friend (even if you don't call her that b/c you think its a little inside joke and then she turns it against you) and then of course you get stabbed in the back, that's what girls do best. i'm not a strong person, any tiny thing that changes my little balance in the world causes me to tip over. i've tipped and i'm crumbling all over the floor and i can't even explain why. i've started doing things that i thought i was through with. i don't mean to be a bitch. the silence is deafening and i need someway to drown it out. i need someway to forget about it and vent my pain and anger in a healthy (healthier) way, or at least try to. a little over a month and then i can start trying to block this part of my life from my memory.
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| "This is what living like this does ..." |
[18 Oct 2004|01:19pm] |
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"So sick, so sick of being tired.
And oh so tired of being sick.
Willing and ready to prove the worst of everything you said about.
So obviously desperate, so desperately obvious.
So good at setting bad examples.
Listen, chick, I've had all I can handle."
Quotes in this entry brought to you by Taking Back Sunday. I know, I know. Blame my co-worker for lending me "Tell All Your Friends" to rip. Its hard for me to express my feelings accurately on my own. But she did turn me on to Snow Patrol, which I must say is a quite awesome little band, the album "Final Straw" is one I would highly recommend.
"Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable."
I sometimes stop to consider what it would be like to try it again, only this time I would be a little smarter, take a little more, and make sure not to eat anything absorbant. But I know that it probably wouldn't work. It would probably just backfire incredibly. I would probably just oversleep or get sick and miss class or worse, someone would find out and I would have to leave school altogether and go somewhere else. I don't want to do bad in school but at the same time I don't want to be here anymore. A part of me wants to end everything altogether, but I think the majority of myself just wants to be numb, to not have to feel any of it anymore. I just want to be numb to the world.
"This won’t mean a thing come tomorrow
and that’s exactly how I’ll make it seem
Cause I'm still not sleeping,
thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this."
I feel like at any moment my body is just going to combust, pieces of me will just splinter off into tiny little molecules and scatter through the air in a million different directions.
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| lets just pretend it hasn't been over a year since my last post... |
[20 Sep 2004|05:02pm] |
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damn how the time flies...been listening to the garden state soundtrack recently...it came at just the right time to reflect exactly how awful i feel about my life right now...i guess i'm in another depressive state...
...being depressed is weird for me, i can still laugh and smile and try to joke and go to classes and work and function normal, except, there is always this constant feeling of sadness that is weighing me down and with them come bad thoughts and no desire to do anything beyond what i absolutely must do. its not much different from my normal state of mind except that normally i can usually fend off the bad feelings for at least a little while, where as now i'm always sad, even when i'm pretending to be happy.
...i realized this weekend that i'm just not a people person. i'm a person person, but definitely not a people person. the person i can deal with, the person is relatively simple. Groups of people, on the other hand, are too damn complex. one on one i'm fine, but when i'm around more than two people there becomes too much going on and i lose myself.
...i also realized that i don't really have many girls that are friends. now, there is probably good reason for this (cause women are crazy), but it also kinda sucks. as mean and vicious and callous as we (myself included) can be, sometimes girls are just better able to understand some of the stuff i'm going through than guys, and there are some things that i just could never talk to my guy friends about, and yes, sometimes it's nice to have someone you can go shopping with or can get hair advice from (as cheesy as that may sound).
i'm just gonna stop writing now, cause frankly, i suck at it. it was a decent attempt though, i usually can't get the thoughts to stick around in my head long enough for me to get to a computer and type them out. also i'm lazy and i don't like to capitalize or fix punctuation and if i stop to, i usually forget what i wanted to write next. i'm gonna leave off with some new green day lyrics that i heard on the radio while driving and liked, even though i'm not really a big green day fan...
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends....only ten more days...
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| Randomness |
[02 Jan 2003|08:50am] |
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I STILL haven't gotten my biology grade.
I'm all achey. I hope I'm not getting sick. I really can't handle a repeat of what happened last year after New Years.
If I said it once, I'll say it again, Dial-Up sucks. I can't download ANYTHING.
Home sucks in the Winter. You want to hang out, but the stupid weather mostly prohibits driving and if you do drive, the cold keeps you locked up indoors with nothing to do anyway.
Next semester is gonna suck something aweful. My schedule is EVIL.
New Years went alright. We could have played fewer video games and drank a little more, but I can't really complain.
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[26 Dec 2002|04:18pm] |
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well, i made it through another holiday season fairly unscathed. my relatives sucked and i got nothing that i wanted/needed/asked for from any of them. now all i have to deal with is New Years. what the hell am i doing????
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| Home |
[20 Dec 2002|06:53pm] |
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I'm Home. Someone please save me. Please...
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| penguin |
[16 Dec 2002|04:51pm] |
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oh my god...i have little penguins marching and flying all around my destop. first i get my internet working again and now this. could life get any sweeter? only if i pass all my finals.....
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| What have I gotten myself into??? |
[09 Dec 2002|05:58pm] |
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Mon:
11:35AM - 12:30PM, BIO 202 - Molecular & Cellular Biology
12:40PM - 2:00PM, BUS 210 - Financial Accounting
3:20PM - 4:40PM, PHI 105 - Politics and Society
4:50PM - 7:50PM, BIO 202 - Molecular & Cellular Biology (Lab)
Tue:
11:20AM - 12:40PM, THR 101 - Understanding Theatre
12:50PM - 2:10PM, GEO 102 - The Earth
Wed:
11:35AM - 12:30PM, BIO 202 - Molecular & Cellular Biology
3:20PM - 4:40PM, PHI 105 - Politics and Society
Thu:
12:50PM - 2:10PM, GEO 102 - The Earth
2:20PM - 3:40PM, THR 101 - Understanding Theatre (Rec)
Fri:
11:35AM - 12:30PM, BIO 202 - Molecular & Cellular Biology
12:40PM - 2:00PM, BUS 210 - Financial Accounting
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| bottoms up... |
[08 Dec 2002|03:37pm] |
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he hates me. i can't blame him. i hate myself. i'm a horrible person. i derserve to be alone. everyone leaves me. my mom left when i was a baby, and even though she is still here physically, she has never been there for me emotionally. my father left not long after, i don't think he ever cared. friends have come and gone, but none have ever stayed long. i should be used to it by now. i guess i'm just not worth it. it's hard to deal with the revelation that nothing matters, especially yourself.
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| i never do anything right. |
[08 Dec 2002|03:51am] |
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i'm being punished because i chose to go to the movies.
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| SNOW!!! |
[05 Dec 2002|03:46pm] |
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It's snowing!!! It's quite odd, I'm not used to a lot of snow on the island. Class was cancelled today, which is wonderful. I got to make a snow angel, but the snow isn't packable enough to make snow people yet. The great thing about this weather is that i actually have an excuse to veg out.
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[04 Dec 2002|10:33am] |
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last night was beautiful. i need to see the stars like that more often.
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| School Daze |
[02 Dec 2002|03:45pm] |
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I have to register for classes on the 9th. This is the tentative schedule that I have come up with. I'm still thinking about whether or not to add another class. I could probably swing it since I barely have a social life now and it will most likely dwindle even further next semester.
Monday: BIO - 11:35 - 12:30
BUS - 12:40 - 2:00
Tuesday: THR - 11:20 - 12:40
BUS - 3:50 - 5:10
Wednesday: BIO - 11:35 - 12:30
BUS - 12:50 - 3:50
Thursday: THR - 12:50 - 2:10
BUS - 3:50 - 5:10
Friday: BIO - 11:35 - 12:30
BUS - 12:40 - 2:00
I loathe Friday classes!!!
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[25 Nov 2002|11:01am] |
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i ended up getting an 89 on my ECO test. no thanks to someone (adam) who stole my binder and hid it from me. it's not the best grade, but it's more than i could of hoped for, considering i really didn't get a chance to study for it and ECO is my hardest class this semester.
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went to the store today to get more yarn so i have something to do over thanksgiving break. i'm still debateing whether or not i should lug my computer and moniter home for it. i will only be home for 5 days. but then again, 5 days is a hell of a long time to go without my computer. besides, what else am i gonna do over break except knit and watch the simpson's.
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[23 Nov 2002|07:53pm] |
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I hate the weekends. They are full of boredom.
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[22 Nov 2002|03:23pm] |
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My brain needs to be washed out with soap.
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[22 Nov 2002|01:17pm] |
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A few things that brighten up my day and/or make me smile...
1) Penguin
2) Pillow Fights
3) The Simpson's
4) Star Gazing
5) Soft serve ice cream
6) Dinner Whoring
7) Good Conversation
8) Hello Kitty
9) My New Desktop
10) The Guide
11) Kevin Smith Movies
12) Sun Showers
13) Pool
14) Floyd
15) Beer Pong (Beruit)
16) Staying up to watch the Sunrise
16) Bunnies and Butterflies
17) Hommies
18) Wendy's
19) Road Trips
20) Mini Golf
21) The anticipation of Linux World
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